it’s all or nothing
Everything that has ever happened in my life has all been leading up to this one moment. My graduate intern year, my wonderful job, the books I’ve read, the experiences, the tears I’ve cried, everything… even this wearing cold I have… it’s profound. It’s all setting me up for this one moment, this new season. Although my Solitude LTE comes perfectly in line with this (next weekend), I don’t know if I’m ready for it… but I couldn’t see it until now: the Lord is drawing me. I’ve given everything I know to give, including time spent in various venues for the next allotted time… including here (xanga)… and I’m still giving. It started small, but I felt the Lord whispering “closer, Son, come closer.” It also started on impulse thinking it would be beneficial to remove items to honor the Lord, my wife, etc… now it just hurts. Not because I don’t have those things in my life right now, but that without a combination of all of them, I feel empty. That’s pathetic. All I have is the Lord and it hurts because I’ve subconsciously trained myself to be satisfied without the Lord’s daily intimate presence. Is that honest enough for you? It’s not that I’ve been satisfied without the Lord, but without His intimate presence on a daily basis. Some of you probably already have that, but I’m not there. I’m fired up just with a glimse from him on a weekly basis. I want more. For the past 2 months, He’s been revealing this to me, and now… it’s only getting thicker. What set Moses apart to go up on the mountain to see the Lord? Not glimses. The only thing I have left is the Lord and fellowship with guys.. .and that’s difficult because I dont trust men. Another honest moment. The Lord has my attention… I’ve got nothing… and I’m ready to go further.
Erik, I think you are getting to a good place. I am excited to hear what the Lord is going to speak to you and where He is going to lead you. I think honesty is always the best place to start with everyone, including God. Remember being honest isn’t being pathetic. The truth sets us free and honesty is an intricate part of it. See ya later Erik.
Erik, Empty or broken in the things of this world is where God can get your attention and begin filling you with His knowlege and wisdom. To really KNOW him! To know who you are in Him. What great and nighty works He will be able to do through you as you surrender your heart and call on His name. When your desires line up with His desires for you, that is when you will find Joy and Strength and Peace and Restoration and Renewal. It is a preparation of your heart and soul for the coming of Jesus! He will stir up the gifts within you to allow you to shine His glory to a world that is dying in sin. Cry Out! Praise Him with your whole heart. Sing back to Him what He puts in your heart. Praise scatters the enemy so that the soldiers of God can march in VICTORY!
“Draw Me Close”
Judah………
I agree..understand completely..
A bird doesn’t sing because it has the answer, it sings because it has a song..
keep singing and you’ll find your answer and your satisfaction
Thanks Erik transparency is real good. A quote for you:
“Relationship preceeds revelation in everything.”
-Naomi Wallace 11/9/04
This is a good season that you are in…God is preparing you for something that is to come.
Melodee
Erik, The time will come when you will see Him in full view. Email me sometime. I miss you, Bro! I wish we could have talked more during Alumni Weekend, but you were sick…remember…lol Talk to you later Erik…
LamadOhana 4 Life, Leigh-Anne
So, I wrote this comment that I thought was pretty profound. Then the Lord in His mercy let xanga break for like two minutes just as I was about to post it. It just shows…
He tears down our kingdoms. It’s the only way for us to realize that there is only one King.
Read Isaiah 30.