what a beautiful day.

Father, thank you for today… for the love you have shown me and for the man you are continuing to make me.  I am nothing without you… help me to be more of your vessel every day.

Today has been very relaxing.  Very enjoyable.  No wonder the Lord put a seventh day in the line-up.  I don’t know what the total has come to, but I think I put a total of 80 hours of work in last week in order to compensate for a significant buisness decision I recently made to significantly cut on expenses.  With the current fraud case that occured in July of last year, I have had to fork a total of $1500 in fees to the bank with little compensation and mercy.  Oh, how the Lord made His face known during this time.  With that much out, I’ve been in debt at the Honor Academy at precisely $1500 and at the risk of being sent home on a fundraising trip.  Glory to the Lord, and with significant hours of work this entire month, I’ve been able to find a way to cut monthly expenses by 14% and make things run even smoother.

The Lord has really hit me hard with having to scope what a life with Him is like despite financial pressure.  Now, it doesnt matter what my financial statement looks like, despite it not being my fault, my freedom rests in Him. 

Glory.  It’s abosultley amazing, really.  How even though this month has been a very challenging one, that I have seen more growth and revelation than any month previous.  I was telling my sister over the phone this morning that it’s one thing to have change happen in your life, but when it happens so quickly that you notice it yourself, it becomes amazing and beautiful.  It no longer has anything to do with buisness or the internship or anything else for that matter.  All of that just becomes a blur and irrelevant… but my relationship with the Lord… wow, i can’t even begin to go off on that.

Speaking of my sister, Idania… she has really been on my heart lately.  Nothing really grabbed me as the day she phoned me in tears by the post office and just poured a portion of her heart to me.  I have made it a point to not be biased in her decision to come to the Honor Academy and even have encouraged friends close to her to be the same way… I don’t want her to feel that just because Erik came, that she must follow in my footsteps.  By all means, no!  …But when she phoned me, it was as if the Lord just whispered to me “encourage her.”  It was at that moment that everything else didn’t matter and that for that window of time, that small moment, her and I just shared hands in eternity and ministered to each other as Christ would have ministered to us.  I’ll be honest, it struck me hard of the lack of encouragement she was receiving from those closest to her in the family, but I knew the Lord had put me at the desk at just the right moment to get that phone call. 

Thank you, Father, for doing just what we think is impossible.

Today was a day of rest.  I am so thankful.  I was able to reflect on the past week (by the way, all the work is done) and just truly rest. I finished a book last night, A Tale of Three Kings and finishing another probably by the end of tonight.  I napped for a few hours, spoke with some friends, had a friend play with my car (parked and in the OFF position), but it was so nice of a day.  I dont think the Lord could have planned a better day of rest.  I look forward to the coming week and whatever (good or bad) that may be in store for me this week.  Because, as I’ve said time and time before, it doesn’t matter what I go through, nothing happens in my life unless it’s been pre-filtered through Him and I’m excited to see what happens next.